Hope

Just yesterday night my Wheeler Magnet friend who is on their FRC robotics team informed that their FTC robotics team, which hadn't made it past the Georgia state tournament either this year, had signed up to compete in South Carolina. Of course when I heard this little tidbit I just a bout flipped out. Needless to say, I scrambled up all my contacts and sources, researched the daylight out of this news, and dispatched a few texts to my teammates and emails to those in charge of the competition. It turns out that we are NOT too late to sign up for the competition, we have enough money to attend, some sponsors to take us there, and the determination needed to go. So what's keeping us back? Well, our ever so wise team captain told me that he didn't want to attend if we weren't sure of measuring up to the competition there. After all, we don't want to embark on a four hour drive, spend copious amounts of money, and then utterly fail at the competition. This brought my spirits down a bit as I had previously been so elated by the new opportunities in front of me that I had failed to consider the logistics of it all. But we're all taking some time tonight to think through whether we can rush some changes to our robot within two weeks and crush the upcoming competition. Let's hope we all get a solid yes.

Mesmerize

Hey. No biggie. It's totally alright for me to be juust a bit sad right now. Right? I mean, my team is completely crestfallen about performing so poorly, my beloved captain has had to bear the bulk of the blame, and of course my parents are furious that I managed to break my contacts. They call it vanity that I had to take it out during the competition. I call it cloudy contacts. But you know what? The smell of his scent on my hand more than makes up for that. I'm so strange. I always knew it, but never that it was this much.

Maybe I massaged his shoulder so much that I kneaded part of his essence into my hand? Not in a weird way or anything.

State Robotics Comp!!

Not really that exciting. Or maybe it's just since we were plagued with software problems, racquet ball annoyances, and of course my dropping and smashing a hard contact. Needless to say, we lost today. Was it due to our general overconfidence after easily winning an almost perfect regional? I can't denial that it was, but at the same time I can't condemn us for our arrogance. After all, it was really a matter of pride. That and the fact that we seriously though we could just breeze through the state rounds. Guess fate didn't want to comply.

It almost seems as though all of the recent past events have acted as a sort of premonition to today. The riot at school on Thursday. The following food fights (yes, plural), fire drills (again, note the plural), and general pushiness of the students on Friday. Oh, and of course we can't forget the tornado drill and subsequent blackout yesterday night. Being smushed into such a small room with that many people was not okay. Especially since the one person I wanted to gaze at was at the far side of the room.

Don't get the impression that I'm ranting or complaining about the competition today though. I'm not exactly angry. Or at least, not about losing. Or even really about my broken contacts. No. I'm just severely annoyed that all those members of our team were venting about our captain's decision to attach three claws to the robot instead of two. But really. Who was it again that built 70% of the robot? And who was it that came up with the entire plan and thought through all the details? And really,who was it that started the actual club? That's right. The captain did. And these bumbling buffoons didn't even have the decency to at least think those ugly thoughts outside of his hearing. Oh no, they say it while he's not even three feet away. During the second half of the day I could almost feel him slipping away and growing more and more anxious. I believed in his technology, though not some of his logic, and the three claws really were not the problem. But their complaints obviously disgruntled him though he tried not to show it, and so throughout the last matches when we had worked out the problem, we was too focused on proving the robot that he never even noticed me yelling instructions at him. The team should just feel awful for criticizing his additions to the robot when they haven't done ANYTHING compared to him. End rant.

Aside from that though, I did enjoy today immensely. The ninja games are one thing that I'll miss about the Seniors leaving, and the flirting as well of course. Those battles of wits really give me something to look forward to throughout the week even. I mean come on. Every night at one, when I finally have some free time, I push myself into crunches, planks, and other whoknowswhats with the thought of HIM on my mind. Haha, what makes me so happy right now is that since I hugged him so many times, though not how anyone imagines hugs, that my hand and jacket smells just like him. Weird much? Just a bit. But I love it nonetheless. All those neck hugs will stay on my mind for the longest of times and the fact that he initiated some of them, though backwards, and despite him being the hugest flirt I know, will be fluttering through my thoughts for no one knows how long. Ahhh, breathe deeply. Everything will be alright.

Maybe he's graduating this May. Maybe since we didn't win the competition we won't have meetings anymore. Maybe our two year grade difference means we have no classes together. Maybe he does have a girlfriend. Who knows. I certainly have no idea what the future has in store for me. After all, look at the past few days at school. Did I ever think I would be living through a high school life of rioting and turmoil? Certainly not when I signed up for the IB program. And did my opinion change? Ohh, but yes. After two days I have decided that nothing is too farfetched.

Hey. It's spring. Magic is in the air. Take a breath.

Woot woot!!!

We got first place in our regional robotics competition!!!!!

Wish us luck for state on March 3rd! We're definitely going to nationals this year ;)

Today's been such the most amazing day. I loove robotics so much. And especially this one person known as our captain~ alfuhau soooo excited today!

Almost There..

Hmmph. And for a while it seemed like I had this whole blogging thing down. Guess old habits aren't dying anytime soon for me. In the two+ years that I've sporadically blogged, my blogging record has been rather, well, sporadic. That is, I have periods where it seems like I've managed to establish a new habit where I blog at least once a week, but then suddenly life overwhelms me and I get dragged to the farthest reaches of the Internet. What do you know, put this way, it even sounds more dramatic and much more like I actually have an excuse for scarcely posting in December and for the fact that my first post in the year 2012 is on the 15th of January. Normally, unforgivable. But with all of this being dragged forcibly away from my blog by the Internet? I'm even starting to forgive myself. Jk. That's all just a bunch of nonsense that came out of watching wayy too many dramas over winter break. Except, I didn't even watch that many. Well, really what I mean is that I've gone over my self-imposed limit of one drama per break. Seeing as I finished Goong and Coffee Prince (sadly, I neglected the last three episode for almost a full year) as well as the entire series of My Girlfriend is a Gumiho and watched the movie 200 Pounds Beauty before starting Brilliant Legacy, it may be just a bit of an understatement to say that I have no self control. But they were good dramas, and while I feel rather exasperated with myself for so easily succumbing to the temptation of dramas, they made for a worthwhile winter break that made me laugh. My New Year's resolution: stop it with the cookie fountain, have a more cheery attitude towards everyone, and finish Brilliant Legacy before starting anything else. Cheers everyone!

That Time Already?

I already talked about my performance in the Nutcracker in my last post, but now I'm just a bit too worried about my back to back performances tomorrow morning to go without releasing all this negative energy anywhere. Well then. Now that all of this is good and done, I suppose I need to go back and do my homework now don't I.. Really, now this is just purely bad time management on my part. It may be a stressful time for me, but that doesn't just mean I can go and let myself relax, rewarding myself before I've even finished the tasks. Hmph. I really need a tighter grip on my own life. I've spent too much time recently on dramas, reading, drawing, sketching, and really, just procrastinating. Come to think of it, what was originally just going to be a two line post has already morphed into this block of text. I better leave before I type up a whole book..

Nutcracker!!

And so once more it is that time of year. The time when the Georgia Ballet puts on their annual performances of The Nutcracker, including dancers both student and professional.

This year I was cast as Sugar Plum Attendant, Chinese Tea Ribbon Girl, and Arabian Attendant, in that order. Since i'm way too tired to stay up much longer, I'll just simply state that each of my quick changes between scenes involved running from one side of backstage to the other and were all done in 2 to 3 minutes. Haha, when changing to Tea, I was literaly running across backstage and my teacher was running right behind me, undoing the hooks on my costume, so I was pretty much naked and running..

Yeah, that's pretty much all I wanted to say right now. So.. Goodnight everyone, and wish me luck for my next three performances!!